A thought

  “People like to say love is unconditional, but it's not, and even if it was unconditional, it's still never free. There's always an expectation attached. They always want something in return. Like they want you to be happy or whatever and that makes you automatically responsible for their happiness because they won't be happy unless you are ... I just don't want that responsibility.”

Monster without a name

 Tomo ni yukou   namae no nai kaibutsu

  The fairytale seems to have died moments ago,in our gardens of insanity,fading in the foggy night.
  Behind the black iron bars of my cell,my empty eyes search for something to release my soul,an evanescent feeling of relief before I fall.It's retribution,the ghosts of my crimes have come back to pick the price.There's nothing left of me,just this blank canvas waiting to be filled with colors other than black and red,like in the past.Monster without a name,soulless shell,infinite sky of lost madness,I wait in silence for the end.
  Don't avert your gaze,look at me.When the red moon comes out and the smoky fog fades away,am I that horrible to you?Be scared,it's better than to be engulfed by the radiating insanity.Monster without a name,destroy or be destroyed,none will survive as long as I'm still around.I make the black rain fall from this starless sky and lift up my wild and empty eyes.Shadows are crawling up my spine,the fears of the past all come back to me and the end is here.The wound that can't be wiped away and the nameless monster.

Aprinde Cerul

 
 In intunericul profund al noptii,cineva aprinse o lumina orbitoare si rece.Arunca pe catifeaua neagra de deasupra noastra cioburi stralucitoare si cusu cu vise un felinar argintiu si mare.Dedesubt,marea lua foc si deveni violet,reflexii ale stelelor lucind timid pe valurile aprinse.Doi ochi privesc bland spre nebunia de culori si cred ca stiu cine a manjit intunecimea noptii.Dar de ce oare zambetul ii este trist?

The Path

 The path to happiness is this way.

 Come,take my hand and let me lead you to happiness.See this path?It's paved with laughter and light.No more hurt for you,I don't like seeing you sad and lonely...It was a time when I embraced loneliness and free fell into the hands of oblivion.Because there wasn't anyone to shine a light for me,I followed what I thought was right and got nowhere.Slowly,the road ahead of me cleares and I want to be of help to someone.
 Your eyes,turning back, forth, and around,are searching for something to hold onto,filled with despair and false happiness.Hey,look here,can you see that fragile light trembling at the far end of the path?Let's make it shine brighter and brighter,together,connected by the warmth of our bounded hands.For that you only have to look into my eyes and let the feelings you see there lead the way.
 Deep,further,into the forest of contradictions,I lost myself.But somehow,I got a glimpse of your wandering soul between the heavy drops of the freezing rain and the scattered autumn flowers,searching for something and I knew what you needed.So,to save myself,I let the emotions flow into my cold heart and reached for you.The smile you gave me was enough to ignite my soul and make me want to save you back.Is it called love?Maybe.Or maybe it's just a strong sense of friendship.Either way,I'm willing to let it overwhelm me.
 I'm afraid that if I let go of your hand I'll lose you forever.Look into my eyes and stay with me.

Soon,very soon

 Randomness.

 Si iata-ne ajunsi si aici,ultimul weekend de vacanta*tear,tear*Pe de-o parte de abia astept sa inceapa scoala,mi-e dor de situatiile stresante si de teme-I know,I'm crazy,probably masochistic too- si de lume.Pe de alta parte,nu m-ar deranja inca vreo 2 luni de pierdut vremea in fata calculatorului.Nu pot spune ca vacanta asta am facut mari realizari,n-am facut nici ce mi-am propus la inceputul verii.Timpul a trecut pur si simplu pe langa mine.Dar am mers la ore de canto-yaay,I'm so happy,I adore singing- si totodata si la o emisiune,am iesit cu fetele mai mult decat vara trecuta si am reusit sa fac progrese in domeniul scrisului si a povestilor-in niciun caz nu cat imi propusesem :| I'm such a lazy git-
 Ador sa ma pregatesc pentru scoala.Adica sa-mi iau rechizite,haine,sa-mi fac ghiozdanul etc.In anumite lucruri-majoritatea-sunt meticuloasa si imi place sa fie totul pus la punct.De aceea,ghiozdanul,penarul,caietele sunt aranjate frumos la inceputul anului scolar.Desigur,in cateva saptamani,vor capata alte atribute,pe scurt vor arata dezordonat.Vreau ca anul asta sa invat mai mult-si sa fac astfel incat sa-mi ramana ceva in cap si dupa 2 zile-,sa particip la mai multe concursuri,sa-mi fac mai multe cunostinte,sa intrec cateva persoane,sa ma implic mai mult in chestiile scolare si sa ajung la nationala la engleza-dream on girl-.
Deja sunt intr-a 11-a...I'm so old-__-

No fear

Don't hesitate.

  If I step forward,I can’t go back anymore so what should I do?Fear is taking over and is holding us down,chaining our desires and dreams in a world we don’t want.Like ashes in the wind,our burnt out wishes scatter in the pool of reality,we have nothing left but the fear to hold onto.It becomes our bestfriend even if we don’t want to because the lack of courage and initiative gives it a clear path to our hearts.So sad,but so true.

 Don’t stop,move forward.Worry about the consequences later and live your life while you still have the chance.Fear is only in our minds,but wehave the power to conquer it;it’s that little spark inside of us that waits to be ignited.

Hanatan-World is mine

 Some songs bring the worst out of me...I feel like being spoiled.

  Uh yeah,I want to be spoiled and selfish today.So obey me and don't say a word.No,better tell me how great I am.I feel like eating something sweet,maybe chocolate and icecream.Dress me up in sugar and tell me how cute I am.Lonely?What's that?I am spoiled,yes I know,so what?Now give me all your love,make me feel like a princess.You can't obey me,I am your master.What?You say I talk nonsense?Nu-uh baby,I just want to be a selfish little princess for a day,is that so bad?Fake tears and you'll fall to my feet because that's just how you are:so easily to fool,a naive little prince.My prince:3Kiss,kiss,sweetness on you.I am spoiled but I don't care.Sparkling,dazzling,amazing me.

Stargazer

I am a Stargazer.

 

 

 Afraid of not being loved back,I ran away to another world.Will you miss me?Have you already forgotten me?From this far away world,I watch the madly twinkling stars and I feel happy because I know we are both looking at the same sky.No matter what,until the end,I have the stars to keep me company and give me a little piece of you.Frosted speckels on midnight ink and my undying love are more than enough.The distance doesn't hurt anymore,because you are there,looking at the same shining lights as me.

Leapsa

Cred ca asta e prima mea leapsa^^"oh well...on with it:

1.Do you want a boyfriend or girlfriend? -Not really.
2.When did your last hug take place?-I don't even remember-__-
3.Are you a jealous person?-Actually,yes.
4.Are you tired right now?-Yeah,it was a long day
5.Do you chew on your straws?-Sometimes
6.Have you ever been called a tease?-I'm always a tease.
7.Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?-Unfortunately not.But I did stay awake for 32 hours.
8.Do you cry easily?-No,I hate crying.But sometimes it just gets too much to handle and I breakdown.
9.What should you be doing right now?-Watching an anime.My list is sooo long and school will start soon,I really have to catch up with some series.
10.Are you a heavy sleeper?-Sometimes,when I'm reaaaaally tired.But most of the time I can wake up in a second if I feel/hear something.
11.Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months?-Maybe,it depends on the person.
12.Are you mad at someone right now?-Nope,I hardly socialize in the summer so I don't have anyone to get mad at.
13.Do you believe in love?-Who knows...Possibly
14.What makes you laugh no matter what?-Stupidity.
15.Who was the last person you talked to?-Mom.
16.Do you get butterflies around the person you like?-All the time.
17.Will you get married?-No.
18.When was the last time you smiled?-2 seconds ago.Amazing,isn't it:))
19.Does anyone like you?-I hope so.
20.Do you secretly like someone?I'm not really sure.I think I do,but it may very well my secret desire to befriend them.I usually mistake friendship with love^^"
21.Who was the first person you talked to today?-Myself.
22.Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?-Sis>:D< and myself of course.
23.What are you NOT looking forward to?Biology and the face of my physics teacher.
24.What ARE you looking forward to?-Learning a new song,meeting up with sis and cupcake and first day of school(I'm insane,I know)
25.Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you, and meant it?-No,I didn't give them the chance to get close to me.
26.Suppose you see your ex kissing another person what would you do?-Who knows,I never had a boyfriend.But,I'll probably get a little jealous and that's all.Everyone is free to do as they please.
27.Do you plan on moving out within the next year?-I'll love to but I'm stuck here.
28.Are you a forgiving person?-Yes.Even though I;m a hurricane when I get mad or upset with someone,it doesn't last long.I'll forgive the person easier than I'd like to admit.
29.How many TRUE friends do you have?-Not a clue.
30.Do you fall for people easily?-Ugh,yeah.But it goes away easily too.
31.Have you ever fallen for your ex’s best friend?-Like I said,I never had a boyfriend.
32.What’s the last thing you put in your mouth?-Pepsi.
33.Who was the last person you drove with?-The bus driver.
34.How late did you stay up last night and why?-1:30,reading fanfiction.
35.If you could move somewhere else, would you?-Hell yeah.
36.Who was the last person you took a picture of?-An aunt.
37.Can you live a day without TV?-I can live weeks without TV.
38.When was the last time you were extremely disappointed?Can't remember right now.But it wasn't long ago.
39.Three names you go by..-Yuu,Yume,Psihopata(Piscot,Yui and Ssix too)
40.Are you currently in a relationship?-No.
41.What is your all-time favorite romance movie?Ugh,I don't have a clue.
42.Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?-Probablly
43.What’s your current problem?-My language summer homework.Which I don;t plan on doing.
44.Have you ever had your heart broken?-Nah.
45.Your thoughts of long distance relationships?-Won't work.
46.How many kids do you want to have?-Not a single one.I hate kids.
47.Have you ever found it hard to tell someone you like them?-I don;t tell people I fancy that I like them.I don;t have a reason too.But I do get embarassed telling my friends that I like them.>_>

Feel the love

Strange things this human emotions are..

 

 Can you feel what I feel inside?This thing called love...It's annoying and bothersome,yet it feels good,warm,nice.Oh,I'm not talking about that kind of love.No,no,it's the emotion that I get when I encounter something new and amazing or something old and familiar,when I'm with my dearest friends and when I'm in my world of magic and colour.A feeling so strong that it makes me powerful.
 Scream with me that you love life.It's not hard to see the bright side of things and enjoy what you are given.
 I feel happy all of a sudden,probably because of that song that I didn't think I will ever like it.I was mistaken.
 Can you feel the love?Hmm?