" Paper airplanes
Open window
Here today
And gone tomorrow."
Grinning like an idiot,with nothing that makes sense in my mind,I walk around the town,headphones in my ears,lightly bobbing my head to the music.It's a sunny day,just after a big storm;it rained all night,I know this because I stayed up untill morning reading a book that was neither good nor bad.I may be a little high from the lack of sleep,but who cares?It's a beautiful day to waste roaming around without a certain destination. "I like crossing the line
And slowly losing my mind
Are you ok 'cuz I feel fine
Maybe it's me I'm just crazy
Maybe I like that I'm not alright."
Madness is a key-word in my life.Without it,I would be like all those average persons I dislike.Not hate,I don't feel such a strong emotion for anyone.Excitement and indiference,this two rule my life.I can't say I like it,but it's my way of living and I don't know how to change it.Also,everything that doesn't make sense appeal to me.Oh,I'm grinning like an idiot again.More like a psychotic idiot someone would say.But it's fun being like this;I never get bored and life is enjoyable.Do you get bored easily?Sometimes I like poking my friends until their patience pops.Not poking as in sticking your finger in their back every 2 seconds,but as in pushing their buttons and being annoying just to see how they react.I'm a curious person,hehe.Oh and I also like to act all silly with them to make them smile.I know I can be unbearable at times,but if they smile and they're happy,then that's fine.I care for everyone and no one.It may not make sense to you,but I know very well what I'm talking about.More grinning. "All messed up
And slightly twisted
Am I sick or am I gifted?"
Nothing more to say,I think.Life is life,with ups and downs like everyone else's but quite different because I have my madness to keep me company and help live it.Grinning,grinning,grinning like a Cheshire Cat.
You see,there's no point in trying to be normal,trying to be what they want.Why live that boring and soulless life?You need to see the true beauty of life,its true nature,its true meaning.Why don't you push the cage's door?You know it's open,no one locked it and no one will ever do that.Step out in the light.Let me tell you what I saw when I did that:warm light filtered through the stained glass windows of an abbey,warm darkness slightly engulfing me and the stone angels around,blending with the light to give everything an almost unperceivable halo;and then there was a door,another one.It looked old but it gave off a soothing vibe.Like it was beckoning me to open it and step beyond it's frame.And that's what I did.Do you know what I saw?A river and nothing alse but a mixture of greys surrounding it from everywhere.I couldn't see its bottom but the dark blue water was whirling wildly,showing from time to time glimpses of something shiny.When I looked behind me,the door was gone and instead of it there was a floating hourglass who turned each time the sand reached its bottom.And a thought occurred to me out of the nowhere.If I stopped the sand from falling,will the time stop?And I did just that.I put my fingers around its small frame and noticed it was warm;when I moved it horrizontally it only cooled off';nothing else happened.Or so I thought.
I let myself fall in the water behind me.Drown,drown,deeper and deeper.I found out it wasn't so bad;floating in the blue darkness,in soothing silence and warm sensations,I closed my eyes.When I opened them again,I was here,living the same life as you but quite differently.Inside me,I was still drowning in the river and time was dead;I was free to live how I wanted,I was no longer chained by their expectations.You know why?Because my conscience fell asleep;it was still there,but now I could see things more clearly.
So I tell you this:push open that door,find your sanctuary,kill the time and dive.That's where you'll find me,floating in dark blue,warm waters where the conscience sleeps and life is real,unbound.
I want to write everyone's love story so they can be happy and smile forever.
I want to give everyone a star to light up their lives and never be lonely again.
I want to absorb everyone's pain so they can live peacefully forever.
I want to scatter the dark clouds on the night sky so everyone can see the moon's beauty.
I want to break the glass wall that separates us all.
I want to make the birds sing so everyone can feel the pure joy of their chirps.
I want to make everyone laugh and fill this sad planet with cries of happiness.
I want to warm even the coldest places so everyone can sleep calmly.
I want to catch all the nightmares so everyone will have sweet dreams.
I want to make people meet eachother so they can find their righteous friends.
I want to erase the existance of sadness in this world but then the balance would fall off.
I want to offer everyone a flower everyday to color their days.
I want to gently touch your faces and warm your souls.
I want to open your eyes to the beauty of the present moment,the only thing that's certain.
I want to take your hand and guide you to the light.
I want my embrace to become your shelter.
You and I,we'll never be together.But that's fine.
Ever since I was a kid,I never wanted to show my weakness to anyone.I was stubborn and easily agitated and those traits weren't erased by the time;they were actually amplified.
You will find me in the depths of the ocean,in the hollow of a tree,in the falling snow,in the pouring rain,in the salt of your tears,in the wild flowers we used to pick for our mothers,in old books,in the blackness of the night,in the passing wind,in the eyes of a wolf,in the falling stars,in the sound of laughter,in the ink I used to write emotions with,in the sand from the playgound of our childhood,in the scent of summer rain,in the sadness of a death,in the bench from our old highschool where you carved our names,in the sharpness of a knife,in the autumn leaves falling on you,in the carress of a lover,in the music that you love,in twillight,in the dawn,in the voices you hear everyday,in the moonlight,in the white sheets where you used to cry,in the screams of agony from the battlefield,in her eyes,in his smile,in imminent death,in the lies I wrote on that diary,in the fake love I used to show,in my ash,in your flesh,in your blood,in your mind.
You will find me in your last breath.
This has to be rewritten someday,I know what I have to do but I'm too lazy now-__-".
"When you look in my eyes
You get what you see
Understand if you can
That I am who I am.
Think twice before you try to read me
Before you try to lead me into your trap
You've got no right to play with my emotion
'Cause you should know that I'm much deeper than that
There is no way
I can love you with half of my heart
It would tear me apart."
Urasc oamenii care se folosesc de mine.Am avut incredere,am crezut intr-o prietenie care se pare ca a fost doar one-sided si am fost dezamagita.Din nou.De ce sa-mi pese de cineva caruia nu-i pasa de mine?Nu imi deschid inima chiar oricui,dar cand o fac sunt trantita la pamant,strivita de ostilitate,ranita de persoana care imi era cea mai apropiata.Am uitat toate supararile de fiecare data,am iertat,am tolerat,am tinut in mine,mi-a pasat.I was a fool and I got hurt.
I thought you understood me,I thought that you cared.But it looks like I've been wrong.Those that don't know how to appreciate friendship,don't deserve it.
The wind wiped at my face,harsh and salty.Looking ahead at the vast grey sea and past it,at the horizon,I could see the tempest aproaching.Clouds are smashing and arching and interlacing with eachother;shades of white,gray and black explode wildly.It reminds of despair.
The sky will be crying soon.Crying with such sorrow and such force that I will die.It cries for the fallen angels in Heaven and it cries for us.Because it knows that for us,it is time to say goodbye.But do you know what I heard?They say soulmates never die.
I feel the ground rumble;nature is mourning us,love.
Hush,don't weep.You will be fine.Promise me you'll live for me too;eternity awaits you.
I always loved the sky;do you remember why?Because it's infinite and free.Just like our love.My escape,my home,my grave.
A gust of wind blew the air from my lungs and I gasped at the force that hit me.Soon,the end.
Above me,the sky shines with reds and oranges as They fight and die.Exploding,fading in chaos,crying in pain,angels are falling.The sea seems upset too;a tide crashed at the bottom of the hill.
It's ok,love.The ache will ease in time.Don't forget:I will still be around.Forever.
The pitter-patter of the rain brought back my attention to what was consuming above me.Mixed with the colourless water droplets was blood.Silvery in color and so volatile that before it even touched the ground,it evaporated leaving nothing but a faint,glittery trail.Angel blood.
Looks like my time has come.Goodbye,love.We'll meet again.
Forever,forever,with you...
That fucking bastard.
Another night like the others.Nothing special.Only that for a certain someone,this was the night when life would begin for her.So when that little fucker that called himself a friend started talking shit about her gaming skills,she knew who would have the privillege to help her in gaining her life.
Row after row of skeletal trees that stretch to the sky,fog laden roads illuminated in black and white,an eerie wind breezing past soulless beetles laying on the ground.It was a sight slightly creepy for the more simple people,but for her,it was just perfect.She plastered a devious grin on her face and dragged her now tipsy "friend"over to the stone table used for outings by the humans coming in the park.Above them,the out of shape moon gleamed faintly,casting a silver glow on her hair."What a fool",she thought.
He didn't notice anything strange.Well,he hardly ever did."Aah,what a night to get laid",he mumbled serenily to himself,smiling like a retarded kid.
She wondered what he was thinking.What was going around that small brain of him when she asked him to come with her in the park to show him something good?She bet she knew the answer to her question already.Her grin only increased.
"Girls are all whores",he chuckeled to himself as he let himself lead to a stone table.He recognised that one as the place where he often drank beer with his friends.When she made him sit on it,he thought that maybe she'll give him a lap dance.Heh,nothing he haven't seen.He was slightly dissapointed,he thought that she was capable of more."Heh,no worries.I can teach the little rabbit a few things."He never questioned her as why she wanted to come with him here.
The fool extended his arms to her in an attempt to get her body closer but she slapped them away with a sickening sweet smile adorning her lips.She clicked her tongue in disapproval and put her hands on her waist."Now,now,let's not hurry,we have plenty of time."He pushed him flat on the stone,then removed her shoes and her shirt.Jumping swiflty on the table,she circled his form six times while watching him with delighted eyes.
He was growing impatient.He tried to grab her ankle but she moved away so fast that he didn't even see what happened.In an instant she was on top of him,holding his wrists above his head.She bared her teeth in a feline green and lowered her head to his ear where she began to whisper something.He couldn't quite make out what she was saying but who the hell cared?Her warm breath was sending shivers down his spine,and he shudered in pleasure at the thought of what would come.
"Oh,how privilleged you should feel for what is going to happen next."she purred,showing her teeth in a wicked smile as her eyes began to glow,the pupils slitted and evil.
"Yeah,yeah whatever you say babe."With his eyes closed in excitement,he didn't catch what was actually happening.He only noticed that the grip on his wrists was getting tighter.By the time he started to feel alarmed,he was already trapped.Above him,purple eyes shone madly at his pained expression.
Tighter and tighter until he felt his bones crushed.
A muffled scream startled the night birds.
He couldn't breath right with his mouth clamped shut by her tail and the pain in his hands.Even though she let go of them,he couldn't move them.Tears started to sting his eyes and his vision blurred.
Cat like nails dug into his throat,slashing the flesh enough to make him wither in agony,but stay alive at the same time.His yowls and his suffering were fueling her blood with the much needed mystical power to complete her metamorphosis from a mere human into her true lineage.
Using her now sharp as knives threads of hair she sliced his shirt and cut open his abdomen in one swift movement.She wasn't one for torture;she preffered to end the messy situations quickly and get to the important part.
He almost fainted,but she knew he was a strong man.He couldn't pass out even if he wanted to.Grabing hold of his intestines,she pulled at them untill they were detached from his body.She knew the pain was excruciating,but why should she care?After all,it was only natural that lower beings were eaten by the superior ones.It was all about the food chain.
One would think that she was going to eat them,but really now.Did she look like a fucking cannibal?She had better tastes,she only went with exquisite food.The guts of some lowly creature like the one under her?No,thank you very much.But all of this was required for her metamorphosis.
She got up and held the organs above her,raised to the sky like a morbid offering.Mumbling something under her breath,she looked at the moon and the bloody flesh was set on fire,burning with a purple flame.She could feel the power surging through her veins and for a brief moment she closed her eyes in ecstasy.Finally,her demon blood was awake.She let the ashes in her palms scatter in the air.
He was probably dead by now.She didn't feel him wriggle in pain anymore,nor could she hear his agonized cries.She didn't even bother to look at his rottening corpse;she just jumped off the stone table and went on her way to enjoy a nice drink as in celebration of her new achieved life.
Why she didn't care for the consequences a dead body in the middle of a park could bring?Because there will be no body found there in the morning.If the stray dogs didn't eat him by dawn,the sunlight would do the job,leaving not a single drop of filthy blood behind.
She smirked to herself."Aah,what a night to be reborn."
His emerald eyes were shining with the flame of destruction.Watching from above,searching,observing,plotting.Wings made of chaos striking the air,fluttering black and red robes merging with his flesh,an unsheated sword resting in his right hand.On the blade's surface,glimps of damned souls could be seen,trying to break free,clawing, tearing, slashing.If you listened closely,you could almost hear their screams of agony.
The air beside him shifted almost indistinguishable and a small demoness appeared,carrying a black harp,kneeling in obeyance,waiting.The Black King raised his free hand,beckoning her to stay still.His flaring gaze was set on the horizon,watching the veil of the night unfold.The blood red twillight was slowly dissipating in a mix of orange and purple,mixing,twisting until all that remained was a thin,golden horizon line.He raised his sword and the demoness started struming the delicate strings,producing the melody of destruction.Her pale fingers danced upon the chords,allowing the music to flow through the air.
A myriad of souls raised from the face of the earth,opalescent balls trembling in the night and flying higher and higher.As the mad notes reached the climax,one by one,the puffy spirits started exploding in bright blazing shots,setting everything they touched on fire.The souls of the world light up the night.
His flaring green eyes watched the show in amusement.Hail the horrors of damnation.
