Innocent love

 Will you let me love you?

"There is something I need to tell you, and though I look for the words
I cannot find them." 
 With a trembling hand I pick the colors and gently lay them on the canvas.Blue tears pouring out from red eyes,black lips trying to whisper words that cannot be found,paper white skin cracking under the pressure of the emotions building up inside.
"These words have no heart behind them, just a closed mind."
 Do I have a fake heart?Only showing its presence when around you. Or maybe it's me who restrains it.I uncounsciously will my mind and soul to be cold,always stay strong and hide from the real world.I know that I will never change my ways,I'm too afraid of what will happen then.I prefer to be considered a coward than to be vulnerable,weak.
"I don't need love like in dramas and such.
Just to be by your side
That alone is enough for me."
 I always ran away from love,I found it useless.Silly me,I wasn't aware that love was always by my side,stuck inside my heart.Be it love for an animal,a flower,my books,a song or a friend,it was there,impregnated in my being.Innocent love,that is what I call it now.You,my dear friend,make my heart tremble;I don't want your love,that will be troublesome,all I want is to be by your side,to care for you,to love you.I still don't know what hides behind your eyes,you may not consider me a friend,but it doesn't matter.I innocently love you.
"Someone's wishes,
Lack of words,
And feelings
Are gently engulfing this world."
 Aah,the canvas is filling up with colors,so many that you can barely distinguish anything anymore.Black memories heading from the corners towards the pain(t)ed soul that lies in the center,surrounded by the warm  shades of twillight and the cold tones of dawn.Chained by loneliness,your love is all that can keep the black away from this fragile prisoner.
"Even though the things to say
Are overflowing
I still can't do it.
Just look at me..."
 My world seeks escape in yours.Both may be crumbling,but I'll keep hoping their pieces fit together.