Because you're cute.Because your mind is interesting.Because your heart is fascinating.Because you make me tremble.Because I don't know you.Because I know we'll be good friends someday.Because you're funny.Because you have great taste in music.Because you're hurting.Because I love your eyes.Because you give me inspiration.Because you're afraid.Because I'm insane and tend to dig my own grave.Because you might be my damnation.Because I love loneliness but you make me want more.Because you're so goddamn cute.
Why in the nine levels of hell do you think so lowly of yourself?I'll stop here.I don't need you saying it's not my damn bussiness what's going on in your life.I already know this.But it's your fault for being so cute and fascinating.No,you're not a lab rat;I really care for you,as strange as it may look with us not even being friends:)Yeah,I'm awkward.
I wish I could take your pains away but you won't let me and I'm afraid I'll break you even more.Oh how I wish I could be the one to hold you,be the one for you.
I'd give you all my love and heart but I don't quite have a heart.It's more like a mess of broken pieces,some of them I'm not even sure they belong to me.But I'll try to be your friend,I'm good at being a friend.If only you would let me.
What are you afraid of?Believe when I tell you I won't leave you;once we're friends I'll hold your hand until the end.All you have to do is trust me and I'll do anything I can to make you happy or at least stand by you when you need someone to lean on.For me,friendship is the most important thing,it surpasses even love so I'm not giving up on a friend as easily as the others.
Remember one thing stranger:you are not alone.When you're sad and need somebody to care,come to me,I'll by your side.
"Keep holding on When my brain's ticking like a bomb Guess the black thoughts Have come again to get me."
It hurts,my head hurts so bad.The fury is chaining me in reality,I can't escape inside my mind to heal my wounds and it pisses me off even more.Black ropes are encircling my hands and feet,can't move,can't hear,can't see.Cry. "Sweet bitter words Unlike nothing I have heard Sing along, mockingbird You don't affect me."
I was expecting this to happen,but it still hurts.Your words left a deep gush inside my mind.Haha,so I was the black sheep,the sacrificed lamb,you had to eliminate one so I was the best choice.It's okay,really,it is.I already knew life hates me,you don't have to point it out so vehemently.It's just that now I hate you,I really do.Scream. "That's right Deliver it to my heart Please strike Be deliberate ."
Please strike,that's why you are here,right?What do you know about me,huh?Don't compare me with the others,I know I'm better.My dignity,voice and mind is all I have so I'll hold tight on them.Say the words,I know you want to crush me.But I won't let you affect me.Growing pain. "Wait, I'm starting to suffocate And soon I anticipate I'm coming undone What looks so strong, so delicate."
I can't breath,this tears are choking me out.My heart trembles with rage,my nails dug deep in my palms,blood is trailing.I may look strong,but I'm more fragile than you think.Your eyes tell everything,you don't like me.It's okay,I don't care.What hurts is the fact that I'm the only one who pays the price for her mistakes.No air. "Choke, choke again I thought my demons were my friends Getting me in the end They're out to get me."
Gasping for air,I remember all the times life slapped me in the face.It's like it's trying to tell me that I'm not allowed to be on the stage.It doesn't let me sing,it doesn't let me live.I befriended my demons long ago,but it looks like they abandoned me when I needed them most.Choke. "Since I was young I tasted sorrow on my tongue And this sweet sugar gun Doe's not protect me."
I know what it's despair,been there,done that.Sorrow is always by my side,waiting for the perfect moment to strike me again.You gave it an opportunity,but I won't let it get me...too much.I try again to get inside my mind but,again,I get no response.My head hurts even more now,the chains are getting heavier.Why do I even bother trying to live how I want?It's obvious that I'm not allowed.Blank. "I'm trying to hold it together Head is lighter than a feather Looks like I'm not getting better Not getting better."
Ah,the pain is not getting any better,it strikes me on and on.I can't feel my mind anymore,it's like it left me alone.But I don't want it to leave.I don't want to be alone.You judged me,you missunderstood me,you hurt me.But it's okay,I'm getting used to that.The black lamb has been sacrificed.
