"When you look in my eyes
You get what you see
Understand if you can
That I am who I am.
Think twice before you try to read me
Before you try to lead me into your trap
You've got no right to play with my emotion
'Cause you should know that I'm much deeper than that
There is no way
I can love you with half of my heart
It would tear me apart."
Urasc oamenii care se folosesc de mine.Am avut incredere,am crezut intr-o prietenie care se pare ca a fost doar one-sided si am fost dezamagita.Din nou.De ce sa-mi pese de cineva caruia nu-i pasa de mine?Nu imi deschid inima chiar oricui,dar cand o fac sunt trantita la pamant,strivita de ostilitate,ranita de persoana care imi era cea mai apropiata.Am uitat toate supararile de fiecare data,am iertat,am tolerat,am tinut in mine,mi-a pasat.I was a fool and I got hurt.
I thought you understood me,I thought that you cared.But it looks like I've been wrong.Those that don't know how to appreciate friendship,don't deserve it.
The wind wiped at my face,harsh and salty.Looking ahead at the vast grey sea and past it,at the horizon,I could see the tempest aproaching.Clouds are smashing and arching and interlacing with eachother;shades of white,gray and black explode wildly.It reminds of despair.
The sky will be crying soon.Crying with such sorrow and such force that I will die.It cries for the fallen angels in Heaven and it cries for us.Because it knows that for us,it is time to say goodbye.But do you know what I heard?They say soulmates never die.
I feel the ground rumble;nature is mourning us,love.
Hush,don't weep.You will be fine.Promise me you'll live for me too;eternity awaits you.
I always loved the sky;do you remember why?Because it's infinite and free.Just like our love.My escape,my home,my grave.
A gust of wind blew the air from my lungs and I gasped at the force that hit me.Soon,the end.
Above me,the sky shines with reds and oranges as They fight and die.Exploding,fading in chaos,crying in pain,angels are falling.The sea seems upset too;a tide crashed at the bottom of the hill.
It's ok,love.The ache will ease in time.Don't forget:I will still be around.Forever.
The pitter-patter of the rain brought back my attention to what was consuming above me.Mixed with the colourless water droplets was blood.Silvery in color and so volatile that before it even touched the ground,it evaporated leaving nothing but a faint,glittery trail.Angel blood.
Looks like my time has come.Goodbye,love.We'll meet again.
Forever,forever,with you...
That fucking bastard.
Another night like the others.Nothing special.Only that for a certain someone,this was the night when life would begin for her.So when that little fucker that called himself a friend started talking shit about her gaming skills,she knew who would have the privillege to help her in gaining her life.
Row after row of skeletal trees that stretch to the sky,fog laden roads illuminated in black and white,an eerie wind breezing past soulless beetles laying on the ground.It was a sight slightly creepy for the more simple people,but for her,it was just perfect.She plastered a devious grin on her face and dragged her now tipsy "friend"over to the stone table used for outings by the humans coming in the park.Above them,the out of shape moon gleamed faintly,casting a silver glow on her hair."What a fool",she thought.
He didn't notice anything strange.Well,he hardly ever did."Aah,what a night to get laid",he mumbled serenily to himself,smiling like a retarded kid.
She wondered what he was thinking.What was going around that small brain of him when she asked him to come with her in the park to show him something good?She bet she knew the answer to her question already.Her grin only increased.
"Girls are all whores",he chuckeled to himself as he let himself lead to a stone table.He recognised that one as the place where he often drank beer with his friends.When she made him sit on it,he thought that maybe she'll give him a lap dance.Heh,nothing he haven't seen.He was slightly dissapointed,he thought that she was capable of more."Heh,no worries.I can teach the little rabbit a few things."He never questioned her as why she wanted to come with him here.
The fool extended his arms to her in an attempt to get her body closer but she slapped them away with a sickening sweet smile adorning her lips.She clicked her tongue in disapproval and put her hands on her waist."Now,now,let's not hurry,we have plenty of time."He pushed him flat on the stone,then removed her shoes and her shirt.Jumping swiflty on the table,she circled his form six times while watching him with delighted eyes.
He was growing impatient.He tried to grab her ankle but she moved away so fast that he didn't even see what happened.In an instant she was on top of him,holding his wrists above his head.She bared her teeth in a feline green and lowered her head to his ear where she began to whisper something.He couldn't quite make out what she was saying but who the hell cared?Her warm breath was sending shivers down his spine,and he shudered in pleasure at the thought of what would come.
"Oh,how privilleged you should feel for what is going to happen next."she purred,showing her teeth in a wicked smile as her eyes began to glow,the pupils slitted and evil.
"Yeah,yeah whatever you say babe."With his eyes closed in excitement,he didn't catch what was actually happening.He only noticed that the grip on his wrists was getting tighter.By the time he started to feel alarmed,he was already trapped.Above him,purple eyes shone madly at his pained expression.
Tighter and tighter until he felt his bones crushed.
A muffled scream startled the night birds.
He couldn't breath right with his mouth clamped shut by her tail and the pain in his hands.Even though she let go of them,he couldn't move them.Tears started to sting his eyes and his vision blurred.
Cat like nails dug into his throat,slashing the flesh enough to make him wither in agony,but stay alive at the same time.His yowls and his suffering were fueling her blood with the much needed mystical power to complete her metamorphosis from a mere human into her true lineage.
Using her now sharp as knives threads of hair she sliced his shirt and cut open his abdomen in one swift movement.She wasn't one for torture;she preffered to end the messy situations quickly and get to the important part.
He almost fainted,but she knew he was a strong man.He couldn't pass out even if he wanted to.Grabing hold of his intestines,she pulled at them untill they were detached from his body.She knew the pain was excruciating,but why should she care?After all,it was only natural that lower beings were eaten by the superior ones.It was all about the food chain.
One would think that she was going to eat them,but really now.Did she look like a fucking cannibal?She had better tastes,she only went with exquisite food.The guts of some lowly creature like the one under her?No,thank you very much.But all of this was required for her metamorphosis.
She got up and held the organs above her,raised to the sky like a morbid offering.Mumbling something under her breath,she looked at the moon and the bloody flesh was set on fire,burning with a purple flame.She could feel the power surging through her veins and for a brief moment she closed her eyes in ecstasy.Finally,her demon blood was awake.She let the ashes in her palms scatter in the air.
He was probably dead by now.She didn't feel him wriggle in pain anymore,nor could she hear his agonized cries.She didn't even bother to look at his rottening corpse;she just jumped off the stone table and went on her way to enjoy a nice drink as in celebration of her new achieved life.
Why she didn't care for the consequences a dead body in the middle of a park could bring?Because there will be no body found there in the morning.If the stray dogs didn't eat him by dawn,the sunlight would do the job,leaving not a single drop of filthy blood behind.
She smirked to herself."Aah,what a night to be reborn."
His emerald eyes were shining with the flame of destruction.Watching from above,searching,observing,plotting.Wings made of chaos striking the air,fluttering black and red robes merging with his flesh,an unsheated sword resting in his right hand.On the blade's surface,glimps of damned souls could be seen,trying to break free,clawing, tearing, slashing.If you listened closely,you could almost hear their screams of agony.
The air beside him shifted almost indistinguishable and a small demoness appeared,carrying a black harp,kneeling in obeyance,waiting.The Black King raised his free hand,beckoning her to stay still.His flaring gaze was set on the horizon,watching the veil of the night unfold.The blood red twillight was slowly dissipating in a mix of orange and purple,mixing,twisting until all that remained was a thin,golden horizon line.He raised his sword and the demoness started struming the delicate strings,producing the melody of destruction.Her pale fingers danced upon the chords,allowing the music to flow through the air.
A myriad of souls raised from the face of the earth,opalescent balls trembling in the night and flying higher and higher.As the mad notes reached the climax,one by one,the puffy spirits started exploding in bright blazing shots,setting everything they touched on fire.The souls of the world light up the night.
His flaring green eyes watched the show in amusement.Hail the horrors of damnation.
The idea for this story came after I recieved this captcha (2443 endsMay) xD.
The 6th of May."Another boring day,the same routine etching itself in my mind,slowly numbing it.It's almost dusk and I just came back from the library with new tomes.The only thing that keeps me sane is reading,immersing in other worlds,thirstily drinking words,soothing my fucked up soul.
As I sit down in my usual spot in front of the main bedroom window,I notice the horizon darken.Looks like it's gonna be a storm.I like storms,the way nature unleashes its fury on humans is another thing that somehow breaks the routine.I don't bother switching on the lights,I like reading with only the remaining daylight to guide through pages and pages of magic.I like the moment when the sky melts into purple.
I finish the first book in only two hours;terrific storyline.I already feel better.By now,the melted purple unnoticeably became a starry night sky.The storm is still around,lurking in the horizon,waiting the best moment to strike.It's like a predator,a beast circling the prey,smelling the fear and hearing its blood pumping faster and faster in its veins as adrenaline kicks in.I wonder how would the people around me react if they were attacked by bloodthirsty creatures.I chuckle at the thought of them losing control and madly trying to save their lives.Anarchy,egoism,bloodshed.As I turn the last page,something on the bottom catches my eye.Written rather remissly with a blue ballpen, is a combination of numbers and words:2443 endsMay.It gives me a rather ominous feeling but I brush it off.
I feel my muscles numb and my back stiff.Looks like I've fallen asleep in the chair;a book lies abbandoned on the hard wood floor,another one is open and on the desk beside me.I look outside and notice the unbridled storm;cold wind slashing at trees,thunders illuminating the dark sky,heavy raindrops descending furiously.I open the window and let the icy water wet my face;it relaxes me.There's a peculiar smell in the air,something akin to smoke mixed with blood.I also notice how deserted the neighbourhood looks.There's no sound,no move."
The girl steps outside the house and the heavy rain soaks her to the bone in no time.Even though she hates her stupid neighbours she decides to pay them a visit.All that silence has a threatening feel to it and is making her sick to the stomach.Or maybe it's the strong,disgusting odor stinging her nostrils.She knocks on several doors but nobody answers so she decides to simply enter the threshold.The first thing she sees is a woman standing stunned in front of her.Her eyes hold a blank stare and blood is dripping from her parted lips.The girl's first impulse is too grab her and check if she's still alive.And she is.She waves a hand in front of the woman's face,she shouts at her,gives her a slap but nothing wakes the unmovable person.So she slips further in the house noticing more people in the same state as the previous one.Even though she is surrounded by half dead bodies,the girl doesn't seem bothered.She goes from house to house finding the same thing everywhere:motionless people with bloody mouths. The rain seems to have stopped.
Suddenly,a chorus of screams and terrifying yowls pierces the silence.The sudden noise shooks her to the core and she crouches down in pain,covering her ears in an attempt to lock out the orgy of shrieks and cries.After a couple of minutes it stops,just as sudden as it started.The stench of decay hits her sense of smell and nausea causes her stomach to empty itself.Staggering,she moves to the closest door and pushes open.There,with expresions of horror imprinted on their already rotting faces,are dead bodies.As she moves from house to house,all she finds are more corpses.With the corner of her eye she notices a digital clock displaying the hour:24:42.In the back of her mind an alarm rings but here senses are to numbed to understand what's going on.
Back at the girl's house,a gust of wind seeps through the open window and ruffles the pages of a book on the desk,stopping at the last page.A stray raindrop falls upon the words written on the bottom,slightly smearing them.
The girl just steps out of the house with the digital clock when it hits her.A pain like none before that snatches a howl of agony form her.She falls to her knees,blood gurgling from her mouth and onto the road;all her senses feel like they are on fire.She chokes on her own blood and after a few more seconds of torture everything goes black.
The digital clock displays 24:43.
Vale was racing away, surging his body
forward and snaking around trees with everything he had. The ground
seemed to quake with the fast and thunderous footsteps of the Beast,
and the sound of it rumbled all around him. Patches of mud and hidden
bumps rocked his balance, but he tried to keep his focus amongst the
adrenaline storm. He kept telling himself that he'll make it out alive from this hellish forest but he knew all too well what a big lie that was.The odds that he'll escape were disturbingly low.This time the touch of death won't miss him.His luck ran out long time ago,when he provoked the beast the second time.
Vale could feel the underbrush press against him, scratching and raking
macabre, red patterns across his pale skin. His foot caught on a gnarled
root and he had to cling to a broken branch to keep himself from
tumbling into the earth. His breath caught like steel hooks in his
lungs, clawing at him and filling him with the scent of moist, decaying
leaves and wet dog.Blood trickled over his pale skin and down his leg, pooling at his heel.
On his left hip were three long gashes that sliced sideways from the middle of his abdomen to spine,a mark left from his former brawl with the Beast.It was like an unspoken promise;his death will be final the next time he'll step in its den.
In the distance a lonely howl pierced the thick silence of the forest,
sending shivers down his spine. Vale could feel panic ripple through
his muscles and his feet picked up again, zigzagging through the trees.Seconds turned to minutes, the minutes faded into an hour, his muscles
growing weary with every step, but the Beast behind him never tired. It
followed closely, matching him stride for stride.It was its teritory,its own bloody playground were toys were torn to shreds of flesh and bone.It never tired of the
chase. Finally, he tumbled through the tree line, his body now subdued
by exhaustion.He lay there, gasping for breath, watching the movement through his
peripheral vision. Twigs snapped, and grunts and snarls could be heard
in the near distance.It was closing in.
Above him, the sky cracked open in a flash of light, and the heavens
opened up, diluting the scent of blood.It looked like the skies were mourning his soon to come death.He flashed a sad smile as the Beast swiftly made its way through the trees and in front of him.The stench of rotten meat,wet animal and poison hit his nose but he didn't seem to notice.His eyes were blank reflecting only the hideous Beast and the red gleam of madness in its eyes.This was it,the end.His mind gave in and disintegrated in face of the unbearable terror,leaving his body to be sacrificed.The Beast howled,stepping toward him slowly.It raised a clawed paw and in one swift movement,Vale's stomach was ripped open,a gush of blood spurting out and staining the Beast's face.It lapped at the red liquid with delight,savoring the cries of pain.
In the sky,the clouds parted and a crimson moon shone madly like it wanted to celebrate the massacre.
"There’s no way that I can love someone
But I want someone to love me."
I'm weird and insane and I don't know how to love so it's better if you keep your distance.This way I won't hurt you,but why do I want you to stick close to me?I know I'm selfish for wanting someone to love me when I can't reciprocate,but do I ask for too much? "Dear God, where did you go? Hey
But there’s no answer; it’s always like this
Are you still here?"
I'm all alone on this road.Always have been,always will be,yet it doesn't bother me.I have nothing more precious than me and as long as I'm alive I'll keep going forward by myself because I know that's the way it's supposed to be.Are our destinies already written or do we make them ourselves,step by step?All I know is that I don't care.Hey,dear God,is this what you want me to do? "You’ll never walk alone
I’ll go with you
Bearing any sin you’ve got
I’ll walk down the uncharted path
All alone with you."
If you ever need me,I'll go with you.I know I can't love,but I'll be by your side whatever you'll do.And when your burden will become to much for your shoulders,I'll take it because,on this road,I'm all alone with you and you've become so precious.You may think that you have nobody by your side,nobody who cares,but you're wrong.I'm still here and forever will be. "You may mess me up even more, okay?
If everyone is going to die and be forgotten someday
Then I’ll only believe in what’s certain now."
I'm messed up pretty bad,right?But if you're okay with me,I'll stick close to you.Nothing is forever and nothing will be great enough to be remembered even a thousand years from now.So all I can do is keep moving forward on my road,live in the present and etch my presence on everything I touch,even if it won't last.
"I will stay with you
Hug me with your hands and with all your heart
Don’t be scared I’m all better now. Even if your hands ended up getting dirtied
I’d still want you to love me."
I'll stay with you,even after there won't be anything left of me.I'll watch over you,until the very end.All alone with you on the road to nowhere...
Another post written because of a song.I absolutely love supercell,their music is so inspiring.xD
Because you're cute.Because your mind is interesting.Because your heart is fascinating.Because you make me tremble.Because I don't know you.Because I know we'll be good friends someday.Because you're funny.Because you have great taste in music.Because you're hurting.Because I love your eyes.Because you give me inspiration.Because you're afraid.Because I'm insane and tend to dig my own grave.Because you might be my damnation.Because I love loneliness but you make me want more.Because you're so goddamn cute.
Why in the nine levels of hell do you think so lowly of yourself?I'll stop here.I don't need you saying it's not my damn bussiness what's going on in your life.I already know this.But it's your fault for being so cute and fascinating.No,you're not a lab rat;I really care for you,as strange as it may look with us not even being friends:)Yeah,I'm awkward.
I wish I could take your pains away but you won't let me and I'm afraid I'll break you even more.Oh how I wish I could be the one to hold you,be the one for you.
I'd give you all my love and heart but I don't quite have a heart.It's more like a mess of broken pieces,some of them I'm not even sure they belong to me.But I'll try to be your friend,I'm good at being a friend.If only you would let me.
What are you afraid of?Believe when I tell you I won't leave you;once we're friends I'll hold your hand until the end.All you have to do is trust me and I'll do anything I can to make you happy or at least stand by you when you need someone to lean on.For me,friendship is the most important thing,it surpasses even love so I'm not giving up on a friend as easily as the others.
Remember one thing stranger:you are not alone.When you're sad and need somebody to care,come to me,I'll by your side.
"Keep holding on When my brain's ticking like a bomb Guess the black thoughts Have come again to get me."
It hurts,my head hurts so bad.The fury is chaining me in reality,I can't escape inside my mind to heal my wounds and it pisses me off even more.Black ropes are encircling my hands and feet,can't move,can't hear,can't see.Cry. "Sweet bitter words Unlike nothing I have heard Sing along, mockingbird You don't affect me."
I was expecting this to happen,but it still hurts.Your words left a deep gush inside my mind.Haha,so I was the black sheep,the sacrificed lamb,you had to eliminate one so I was the best choice.It's okay,really,it is.I already knew life hates me,you don't have to point it out so vehemently.It's just that now I hate you,I really do.Scream. "That's right Deliver it to my heart Please strike Be deliberate ."
Please strike,that's why you are here,right?What do you know about me,huh?Don't compare me with the others,I know I'm better.My dignity,voice and mind is all I have so I'll hold tight on them.Say the words,I know you want to crush me.But I won't let you affect me.Growing pain. "Wait, I'm starting to suffocate And soon I anticipate I'm coming undone What looks so strong, so delicate."
I can't breath,this tears are choking me out.My heart trembles with rage,my nails dug deep in my palms,blood is trailing.I may look strong,but I'm more fragile than you think.Your eyes tell everything,you don't like me.It's okay,I don't care.What hurts is the fact that I'm the only one who pays the price for her mistakes.No air. "Choke, choke again I thought my demons were my friends Getting me in the end They're out to get me."
Gasping for air,I remember all the times life slapped me in the face.It's like it's trying to tell me that I'm not allowed to be on the stage.It doesn't let me sing,it doesn't let me live.I befriended my demons long ago,but it looks like they abandoned me when I needed them most.Choke. "Since I was young I tasted sorrow on my tongue And this sweet sugar gun Doe's not protect me."
I know what it's despair,been there,done that.Sorrow is always by my side,waiting for the perfect moment to strike me again.You gave it an opportunity,but I won't let it get me...too much.I try again to get inside my mind but,again,I get no response.My head hurts even more now,the chains are getting heavier.Why do I even bother trying to live how I want?It's obvious that I'm not allowed.Blank. "I'm trying to hold it together Head is lighter than a feather Looks like I'm not getting better Not getting better."
Ah,the pain is not getting any better,it strikes me on and on.I can't feel my mind anymore,it's like it left me alone.But I don't want it to leave.I don't want to be alone.You judged me,you missunderstood me,you hurt me.But it's okay,I'm getting used to that.The black lamb has been sacrificed.
